Saturday
“This is your principal mission in life—save the country again from the Maoists, the anarchists and the radicals.” This is the message that I deduce from the visions that I see asleep and awake.
“Subordinate everything to this,” God seems to be saying to me.
“And you are the only person who can do it,” He says, “Nobody else can.”
“So do not miss the opportunity given you.”
“And if you do, it will mean not only your death but that of your wife and children and of the wives, children and friends of men of equal persuasion.”
So now I have told Imelda these visions of mine—she who has always been my inspiration and strength.
And she has reinvigorated my resolve and my decision.
“I have learned to love our country as you do,” she said as I told her that a time had come again when I must stake my life for our country and people as I did during the war. For the risks may be great and only God knows how it will end.
“If die we must to save her, then let us do so gladly,” we have agreed.
These were our thoughts as we lay in bed upon waking up.
After a cautious, careful and objective study I have come to the conclusion that not only is the Republic in danger if we do not now root out the communists. The lives of our families—Imelda, Imee, Bongbong and Irene not to speak of me or that of mother and my other relatives—are in danger, whether I fight the communists now or not.
When I retire, the communists will come after me and my family. I can take care of the politicians but I may not be able to take care of the communists when I am no longer President.
And the unfortunate part is that I cannot see anyone in the country today who could do so even if he were President.
[Fernando] Lopez, [Gil] Puyat, [Gerardo] Roxas, [Benigno] Aquino [Jr.], [Jose] Diokno or [Arturo] Tolentino or [Jovito] Salonga are weaklings who may not be able to hold back or slug it out with the communists. They would compromise until it is too late. Then the Republic would be caught between the communists and the rightists.